At one point of time resentment consumed me. If I didn’t like someone the feeling of discomfort lingered on me within their presence. Being an enemy of mine became a lifelong contract which I had no interest in renegotiating. Many may call it characteristics of a Scorpio but no horoscope can predict unforgiveness. This was a part of me. I am not proud of it but like any life lesson, it grew me. I’m a true believer that you must have a test to have a testimony. In other words, life gives you lessons that teaches you who you are and who you meant to become. It’s never easy but it’s necessary. Those test that you receive in life can either ruin you or evolve you.
As for me having a child at a young age taught me transparency. Dealing with difficult relationships taught me humility. Each difficult transition in my life brought unexpected resentment. Resentment towards the people that mistreated me. Resentment towards myself for allowing certain people in my life. But the thing about resentment is that it’s heavy. The grudges weigh you down like a packed book bag that eventually you just have to pull behind you.
Eventually, the weight becomes too much to bear.
Holding on to resentment only hindered my soul and flawed my character. How could I expect to grow and be forgiven if I continued to carry the weight of unforgiveness?Praying and writing have always been my release. For anyone who is reading this, I reveal to you a glimpse my life in hopes that my words can be of encouragement. I write about the hurt but it needs to be understood that within my pain is forgiveness.
31. Get Rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with any for of malice. 32. Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.